its not my fault

its not my fault that
you are a stupid bitch
you are rude
you are impatient
your car is unsafe

i am getting sick
i wish i wasnt
but i dont give a fuck

i dont want to be around anyone
i dont want to be stuck in a car

i want to write you a check

so i wont feel guilty.

i just want to be alone

the rain is soothing

i hope it cools down

i want to read harry potter

its not my fault...
not
my
fault

but it is.
because im a reclusive person
because i want friends that will last

because i miss that stupid fucking face
i wish that you could hear this rain
and hold me

because i want to cry

ITS NOT MY FAULT YOU ARE UNBEARABLE!
i feel guilty
oh my

Sometimes

I sincerely hate everyone
sometimes
i want to vomit in a cup
and throw it in their faces

Sometimes
I want to run the fuck away
and start over

Sometimes
I wish life was harder
but then i realize it already is

sometimes.....

My thoughts scare me
and I become a recluse

I wish you were here.
no.
I wish i was there

The rain
the humidity
the people
the life

I love it.

I want to move

One of my friends once told me
"sometimes you just have to make yourself really uncomfortable and you will succeed."

maybe i will try that.