stuck in a rut

YES!

im depressed

i hate school

i dont know what im doing

i love this cold weather.

i am confused out of my head.

i wish i had a job

i wish i didnt have to go to school

maybe i wont anymore

but i would be letting people down

my friends

my family

maybe even myself

im tired of being sick.

im tired of always being tired.

i wish i could just stop where i am

move somewhere

maybe to seattle

live in an apartment

i envy my friends that do nothing

even though im sure they loathe it.

i wish i had that kind of freedom

but i guess it could also be a cage....

lately i just feel stuck

im having trouble finding comfort in music

in my life

in a cup of coffee

in tea

in anything

no comfort.

i look into the mirror

i cant look in my own eyes

i will just see disappointment.

im so stuck

so so so so so

stuck.