Today

Today was eye opening.
its my birthday
i have been alive for 19 years
but i dont feel like i have accomplished anything

it was a good day
today the weather was amazing
so cold
but so good

it snowed
i loved it

i received alot of calls
alot of advice
alot of propositions

do i stay here?
or do i go to denver?
do i go to santa fe?

what to do.

i want something
something new
something ive never done
time to live on my own

which will end up happening
because my grades are shit
so my scholarships will be over

i cant afford anything else

today
was a good day
enlightening
visual

covered in hot sauce
ate some delicious wings
listening to an amazing mix
made with love
and true thought

makes me feel loved

thinking about the train rides of the summer
with my best friend
in a place i love
eating jaffa cakes
drinking cider
magners and strongbow
drinking good beer
Stella and Cobra

there are so many directions i could take

i have alot of thinking to do
alot of things to accomplish

i am a year older
another year i have lived

today, i am truly grateful
for my family
for my friends
they help me through so much
they sit on my floor
smoke weed
drink
love me
hold me
make me amazing 8track mixes online
go get food with me when i dont go to my classes.

today is my birthday

today am i alive

today i will think
and be grateful for all i have

today. is today.

today... belongs to me.

today my outlook has changed.
i need to be more positive

today i will follow the teachings of Yogi Bhajan
Healthy am I. Happy am I. Holy am I.

those are debatable
but today I feel that way.

amazing how realizing you have survived as long as you have can change your outlook.

today
was a good day
it had so much to give

Today....