my will to stay in this construct is dwindling.

this is what 4 hours of sleep looks like
with out being able to nap
with a raging headache
with your lack of modesty
with my temper growing shorter
and my brain
shutting down

this is what 4 hours of sleep
a baby shower
too much nicotine
and girls yelling in the hall

this is what 4 hours of sleep
depression
regret
fear
lonelyness

this is what 4 hours of sleep
fucking
looks like

my face
i want to curl up
and get
4x4x4x4x4x4x4 hours of sleep
with you
because

i am
what FOUR FUCKING HOURS
of restless sleep looks like