Excuse me,

Read. not a book
a newspaper
a magazine
a fucking current events webpage.

then join the real world

not everything is about you
just because some one is speaking doesnt mean it is to you

learn to function
to breathe
to eat
to be quiet
to use manners

i dont understand people
ever

i am so tired of everyone
of everything

and its not them
its me.

because i am relatively unhappy i assume everyone else around me should be

but that is selfish.
but i know there are others.

im sick of living in a passive aggressive world.
of people not just saying what they want

i need people to grow a thicker skin
to fucking buck up.

oh well that wont happen

im tired of being sick
im tired of not sleeping.
but i have given up even caring.

really.
i dont care
about you
about your problems
about anything
i just want to get the fuck out here

but i cant because i will be letting people down

not myself.
but my friends and family.

maybe i need medicated
or help
but we will see

this bed sucks
i can feel my back screaming.
i can feel the springs with my feet.
the sheets i have are too big.
they slide around

so i will sit here
and read the news
read some fucking current events

because i realize that knowledge is power
that if i can educate myself i wont be like you

i will use manners
and common sense.

now if you will excuse me....