so close

so close to being done
so close
so FUCKING close

i can feel it in my reach
i just need to find motivation

for school
for love
for everything

so i will sit here and watch 90's television
drink tea
and try to find my mind
try to get things done

try to find my love for something else
because so far im just disappointed.
so far this is my nightmare world

i feel like that hummingbird in the cartoon
flapping my wings and not moving.

isnt it odd how when we try to find out future,
what we are going to do, how we are going to progress
we find ourselves doing nothing

going nowhere.

im so close.

but too far away...